Brings Me BackI breathe through writer’s block,For now it’s on the clock,I want to stay in the void,And old feelings just avoid. Alas, there’s time and space,To remind me of the former grace,That shone once to me, The light went everywhere beside me.Everything was painted bright,Every detail caught my sight,And gave my pen the mightIt does not have anymore. It is gone for good now, nothing’s left,I returned my heart, there is no theft,This darkness surrounds me every day,And less and less I have to say,About you. Love is blind, mine was not,I see less now, I saw a lot,Please, forgive me, but goodbye,I forgot the day you caught my eye,I forgot the glory of the waysI used to act in the old days,To put a smile on your face.But now if you have for me distaste,Because you think I am a disgrace,Understand I am no longer in the race,I do not care about you anymore. Where is my purpose as a poet now?Without love or hate,
AmbivalenceBorn in lands God forsake,Spend every moment in ache,I am free from all…No more feelings of sorrow,But no view of tomorrow,Living day by day. Painless,You think you’ve accomplished something,But you live in a much darker world.The past is now gone forever,But you do not care a bit. I cared, I cared for too long,But now the void within me is too strong,Why should I bother waking up,With heavy thoughts on my mind?Why do you need emotions?Exist without them,Live life without colors,Live your life without flowersLive your live in gray… Where is your human feelings?You are a human being.Your heart is an empty cup,Fill it with something special,Something that makes you smile,Smile wider than ever before,Before all of this changed your life,Life that still continues.
I Used To Have A ReasonI used to have a reason to do what I do,Now it is just a habit I am trying to get through,Meaningless motions, without emotions,Trying to keep a clean conscience. Embracing the darkness in the dim light,I do not think I will sleep another night,It is 4 AM, and there is no meaning,To feel what I used to be feeling. The pen slides through snow white paper,It cuts it in two like a sharp saber,But what is the point of doing this allIf It feels empty just like this Fall?To fill the void I leave to fate, There is no love, there is no hateFor times have changed.
Forget Me, Forgive MeForget me; I am a no one,Forgive me, for loving you,I do not have the right,I am so tired of this endless fight… I know the answers,I do not ask questions.It is hard to carry feelings,And burst in tears once in a while. I thought I had the courage,But the mirrors to me shine,And I change my mind,Before I lose it. I suffered too much to relate to,You cannot feel what I feel,I do not wish upon you this,Because you won’t bare the pain. To hope for hope,To cry for tears,To overcome all fears,I try.
CowardYou know how the blood boils,When my heart for you beats?My existence is coated with burning oil,All alone I roam the streets. I try to speak up, but my voice stops,And my tongue, my sword of bravery drops.I am a coward without orders,Who will try to stay within his borders. I cannot be with you direct,Because I am afraid to be correct.Who am I kidding, I am not okay,Insanity is certain if I go this way. For your sake I suffer,Because nothing I have left to offerAnd nothing from the start I had,All I do is make you mad…
LoneWhen hearts are breaking,And all bonds shaking,And true love just feels so fake,Being lonely is now my pride,Because there is so much at stake,I am kept from this pain for my own sake. I concealed my feelings for too long,Now I see it all pays off,Thoughts kill even the strongest minds,But my strength was just enough,To overcome you without further pain,Though there was no slightest gain,I am happy that I am alone,Because you’d leave me,You’d be gone. But, do not worry, fate will smile,To find the truth takes a while,Forget reasons that forged your sadness,Because without a singledrop of badnessYou do exist in our bright world.Do not rush, just wait, dear girl.Because this is the Midwest,And here you only find the best.
Reverting BackFalling again from the cliffs of victory,Reverting back to the old ways,In such a fast paceFrom our last place… Why did it take so long for usTo realize our loneliness for good?Maybe it is how we shouldLive our lives. No one expects a miracle to come true,No one expects everyone to find me and you,No one understands all that we've been through,And no one believes in what we are going to do. To feel for us there is no reason,Or at least we do not know,These winds are foreign,Towards us they never blow. To say goodbye to love we’re ready,To enjoy our hearts beat slow and steady,Away from pain, away from theft And there are still so many colors left.
No Fear, No LoveCome on, let’s sit and talkOr just go for a walk.I have something to say,I want to share with you my mind’s way. If I were to fall for you,If my feelings were true,I would not hesitate to confess to you,Because I know you all too well,And nothing I am afraid to tell. If everything was true like in this story,If my heart was broken, I would not worry,Because you would fix it up, after it breaks,Your word of kindness is all it takes. Do not confuse me with my past,My first mistake was my last,If you had my heart I would be sane,Because there is a chance to explain. I have nothing to hide,Just ask me, my friend,And I will answer to the end,I feel no love, do not worry dear, But to love you I would not fear.
KansasKansas, you made me your child,And let me out running it your wilds,Towards adventures that I’ve never imagined,I try to keep a clear mind with all your tangents. I still remember when it was cold,Her hair was like your wheat fields gold,Her eyes were blue as your sky,And I was charmed, you know just whyLove is unanswered once again.It is now as it was then. Kansas, why have you bestowed this feeling on me?I am myself, I was never meant with anyone be.Why are you putting me through all this pain?Please take a moment and explain! Alas, you won’t, you are mute!No matter how many may refute,I found the answers by myself!