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Faded CrushI tried to read her mind,
And then I realized,
That fate will not be kind.
In my mirrors I can see myself every day,
Tears fall from my eyes, nothing I can say.
I am not worthy, but she surely is,
She will be a shining star,
I will be lost in abyss.
I killed another crush within this heart of mine,
It hurts sometimes to understand,
Please, just don’t remind,
That I will never hold her hand,
She will be with a different man…
And to kill my feelings yes I can,
This is my only plan…
She does not have to know,
Because I know too much,
My eyes and ears have a magic touch…
A crush just faded away,
Maybe another one we will see some day,
But now there is an empty void,
And I can finally rejoice…
My DarlingI can’t be your lover,
Oh, my darling flower!
There is no reason for hating,
For so long for you I’ve been waiting.
Time has passed since last hopes faded,
But I still love you, please, appreciate it.
I am desperate to be with you,
But, understand I do not know what to do!
When finally I will leave this phase?
When will I get out of the maze?
When you lose your meaning for me!
When once again my soul will run free!
A ValentineWhen Valentine’s Day approaches,
My wooden heart is overwhelmed by roaches,
And from my skull comes out a snake,
How long of this will I take?
It’s kind of hard to concentrate,
Because thoughts most of my mind ate.
I’ve been punished for my sins,
Everyone, but me now wins.
I am defeated, but now I see, who wore masks,
They are happy, they fulfilled their tasks,
Still, there is some hope left in the sky,
Before I say my last goodbye.
I stand up and look around,
All I hear are laughing sounds,
But all I see is the dark,
There is not a single spark.
Suffocating the Soul: IsolationI am forgiven, but it does not mean I can forgive myself for my actions.
Suffocating the Soul: Isolation
Happiness and joy are something foreign to me, so dear reader, if you want your world to be colored by mostly bright tones, you are terribly wrong. Still, I have some bright colors in my pocket and I can use them…but not in this story.
I am walking through halls with cinderblock walls painted in disgusting yellowish beige colors. The floor is made entirely out of wood, what kind I do not know, but I am sure it is getting old, just by taking one step. I look at the ceiling: it is only one or two feet above me. It is grey and dusty, with cracks, and only fragments of it remind of the time when it was new, almost as white as snow. The hall leads me to a large lobby overwhelmed by cold and the dim light makes me feel strange inside. It is a feeling of nostalgia, loneliness and isolation combined in to one and a stone is tied to my heart.
I AM GONE!!!No more grow inside me flowers,
TO WRITE I LOST ALL MY POWERS
Turned in black my shining sun,
I THINK THAT'S IT, I AM GONE!!!
I knew that one day it will all end,
And I knew that I am away by fate sent,
Goodbye my past, I have detached my heart,
I slammed it on the ground and broke it apart.
Nothing more I can explain,
My life just went down the drain,
Nothing matters like it did before,
I cannot take THESE THOUGHTS anymore.
No one understands the pains inside of me,
No one ever said a word of love to me,
UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS NO WAY BACK FOR ME,
THAT THERE IS NO HAPPINESS IN THIS WORLD FOR ME!!!
FORGET ZAKEMUR WITH ALL HIS GRACE,
THAT UGLY SMILE ON HIS FACE,
FOR THE WORLD HE HAS DISTASTE,
EVERYTHING HE LIVED UP TO HAS GONE TO WASTE!!!
I AM LETTING GO FOREVER, FARWELL FRIENDS,
I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT SO IT ENDS!!!
THIS IS HOW EVIL CONSUMES SOULS
AND CHANGES ALL PEOPLES' GOALS!!!
Liquor of My HeartI am looking at an empty glass,
But I still can see two liquor drops,
You drank it all, my friend, alas,
Now you see a heart that stops…
Drink it, drink it all!
The bitter liquor of my heart,
My friend, It will hit you very hard,
You will fall apart.
What is left in there you can drink,
But you are standing on the brink,
In your own tears you will sink,
About the future you won’t think.
The red liquor is almost gone,
So, if you are finished leave me alone,
Too much of it will turn us in to stones,
And the pain will break your bones.
Drink it ALL at once my friend,
Don’t leave some in the end,
I want to see you burn,
To stone you turn,
To stone you turn
Ending The SearchFor so long I searched for love,
But one day I had enough,
So I am packing all my stuff.
It does not matter if it is cold or warm,
I will ride the Greyhound through the storms,
Back to Kansas, back to the dorms.
And no mere heartbeat will stop my mind,
if you search for a long time, something you’ll find,
But nothing will matter anymore,
Because from feelings you’ll be sore.
I have abandoned all dreams of mine,
To me they will never again shine,
But at least I’ve got myself,
Time to get the keyboard from the shelf.
Sometime I think I will fail,
And would not pay the darkest bail,
But the music just goes on,
I have decided and it’s done!
Kansas is waiting for us to comeback,
And drop the heavy loads from our backs,
So let’s go back to our home state
And show everyone it’s not too late.
You're Losing MeI lost you and you’re losing me,
And from day one I could see,
That you and I were never to be.
Some things are wrong, some things are right,
You can inside me fire ignite,
And the flames can blind me with their light,
But I know all; I feel all, I see all in the night.
What costs we are paying we don’t know,
Maybe it is the right way to go,
Maybe I’ll fall apart or maybe I will succeed,
Maybe to happiness this all will lead.
I am sad,
I am mad,
And I’m glad
That you are gone,
And I am left forever alone.
At least I am free and I’m nocturnal,
I know this will not be eternal.
I Won't Die For YouI have not written yet my will,
I do not know why I love you still,
Why I need to pay this needless bill?
I wish this feeling I could kill.
With my heart you comply,
But on my head I rely,
No matter how much I cry,
For you I will not die.
You still make me wonder,
Are you a lightning or thunder?
Maybe you are not from the skies,
Because so many told me you lies,
This is why this feeling I despise.
Small things of the past remind,
They put my memories on rewind,
Stop them, please be kind,
I do not want you there, in my mind…
Abandoned ChapelThe parish waits now,
the loneliness of corners
crawling outward on walls--
chipped away by the wind,
and held together
by silk spindles;
cobwebs align them like the membranes of memories,
the cut of a jewel in an broken window
against the sun
where beads of rain
gather in a mesh of strands
a new Mosaic
against the backdrop of a cemetery;
My eyes seek out the sermon
in close proximity,
paint no distance
between headstone and cloud;
elegies topple each other
in their climb to heaven
as light trickles
over the shade,
breathes a new glow over snuffed candles.
I feel the weight in these empty rows,
how a breath couldn't cease to be breath
in the midst of prayer.
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