Nothing To SayI once loved you, but lost the ability,
My heart raced for you, but lost the agility.
What it left behind is only sorrow,
I do not want to wake up with it tomorrow.
Too long I stuttered the same words,
I know for you it was annoying and absurd.
You never listened to the end,
Well, now you lost your friend.
I have never lived in such conditions,
I lost my hopes and my ambitions,
My soul was in pain and I was squirming.
But you did not care at all how I was burning,
I try to turn back, but it is not possible,
My arguments are no longer plausible,
Everywhere I go, you are eating my mind,
When will finally I will peace find?
A poet is crazy, but his craze grows more,
When in front of his face you shut the door.
I held back, because you pushed me away,
I wanted to talk, but now nothing I have to say.
In DecayI wasted all my youth,
By trying to tell you all the truth,
But you just thought it was all lies,
I look at myself now and see how time flies.
‘Cause I am in decay,
Nothing else now you can say,
You do not understand,
That in reality I barely stand.
I reached for help one last time,
But no one held my hand,
And you are not worth a single dime,
Cause you do not understand…
That I am in decay,
And nothing else now you can say,
You tore me to bits,
My heart took too many hits.
I do not wait for the final hour,
But I know that life is sour,
And it is bitterer than tears,
I’ve seen it all, I’ve got nothing to fear.
But I am in decay,
There is nothing else now you can say,
I had been scared for the rest of my life,
And you stabbed my scar with a knife.
You were the World’s biggest liar,
You burned me with infernal fire.
You never got to know what was I thinking,
You never thought my soul you were drinking,
My PastFrom a distant land I come from,
I’m just a student living in a metal dome.
Here we get from the internet knowledge,
We don’t get it from school or college.
In this realm our only tutor,
Is a personal computer!
The education system is nothing but embarrassment,
They keep it alive thanks to lying and harassment.
Because of corruption no one learns at school,
For some people it may seem cool,
But not for the ones who want to learn,
Alas, this is the government’s least concern!
The majority of teachers here cannot teach,
The peak of knowledge we can never reach.
An excellent student I have always been,
But here in Azerbaijan it is almost a sin!
I’ve been always bullied, insulted every day,
But still I continue to live my own way!
Unprofessional teachers have always me disheartened,
My life every single day extremely hardened.
The Grim Reaper visits people here much more often,
Towards them he will never soften.
Why people here randomly die, you would ask,
Science MonkeyBack in August a doodle I drew,
I drew it, my friends, for me and you,
Science monkey, that how was it called,
You destroyed it when relations got cold.
Science monkey, you are my creation,
A silly product of my imagination,
But now for me you have a meaning,
Even if no one towards me is leaning.
Science monkey was just hanging around,
All that time when I thought my place I found,
Now it is lying somewhere in the ground,
Only I can hear its pitiful sound.
Science monkey, this you never deserved,
For a long time a symbol you served.
Now you are no longer existent,
Because to changes you were resistant.
Science monkey, life is cruel to me,
Without me where would you be?
Ripped in half, forgotten by friends,
That is how your story ends.
College LifeA disaster is a approaching and I can feel it,
Because there is a free heart and I can steal it,
But all my papers and all my homework just pile up,
But I am still waiting for my gig to be up.
I do not know how complicated it will get,
But I will fail if I continue this way I bet.
Nothing is known, nothing is certain,
We are people from different sides of the Iron Curtain.
My mind tries to comprehend the situation,
Is she my doom or is she my salvation,
For no reason I risks I am taking,
My own life more miserable I am making.
If I let myself go, I will let paradise fall,
And it will be an end to all…
Staying The SameOne day I don’t care,
The other I am in despair,
Because sometimes life’s unfair…
My mind tries to keep it all together,
Even though changed the weather,
We remain the same,
Playing our old game.
I am happy and I am sad,
Slowly I am going mad.
What is going on with my World?
You hold the answer, girl.
I said that we were just friends,
And so the story here ends.
But rumors just everywhere spread,
To love my heart they once again led.
The Fourth Month Of SummerIt is the fourth months of summer, no it is not fall,
I do not trust what books say at all.
I am not dumb and I am not stupid,
I only know one thing: I was shot by a cupid.
Words still do not make sense,
The sun is shining too bright and I feel tense.
If only I knew my heart’s expense,
I believe that we would not be even friends.
A decision made and a will lost,
Under the mighty star I turn to dust,
I cannot stand its heat.
Sunstrokes to death want me to beat.
But when red copper turns in to white gold,
And when we will be haunted by blistering cold
You will follow me and I will follow you,
And everything will stop when I say: “I love you”
No LoveI know that is not what you want to hear,
But losing you I no longer fear,
Even if the thought burns me sometimes,
I can put off the fire with my rhymes.
I can live without you do not ever worry,
And to love again I do not even hurry.
Nothing matters anymore like it did one day,
Neither I nor you have anything to say.
I refuse to acknowledge my heart’s existence,
I will rip it out if I notice slight resistance,
I do not care if I will end it all
And if to the sky I release my soul.
You won’t care either, I know you…
YouOur Worlds are ferociously colliding,
They are trying to be one.
Different thoughts through our minds are sliding.
With you it is never boring, it is always fun.
Sometimes I feel that something’s missing,
Maybe, my friend, it is you
And every time I hear my heart hissing
I know it is missing something too.
In endless moments of frustration,
In dark days of my nation,
I am calm for no reason,
Is it you or is it treason?
I do not know what to say,
Because the answer I do not hold,
But to you I will be on my way,
When Kansas is overwhelmed by cold.